writing on the walls

it's been a while since i've blogged. 2 weeks ago my sweet little boy turned one. it's so hard to believe that a year has passed since he made his grand entrance into the world and changed my life forever. i never knew the joy that one tiny person could impart until he was here. and now, a year late,r that joy is just growing in leaps and bounds. i plan to do a birthday post soon. a sweet friend of mine took pictures at the party so i could just enjoy being mama that day and i need to go through them all. that will come soon.
other than his birthday there is not much going on around here. my days are spent playing with and caring for the sweetest little boy i know and enjoying every minute of it. jason has been super busy with work lately which is a blessing in the financial department but we sure do miss him when he's gone so much! silas is really turning into daddy's little buddy. he loves his daddy so much and asks for him constantly when he's not here. with him being so busy there were a couple days where he left before silas woke up and got back after he went to bed. the next afternoon when jason was home silas would not nap. he's usually a very good sleeper. jason went in there and stood next to his crib and he went right to sleep. he was just missing his daddy. i love watching them together!
well, it's late and my little guy will be up bright and early. i will be back to post about his first birthday very soon. until then i'll leave you with a couple random pictures. we're having fun playing at parks this summer. the last picture is him on a rocking horse at michaels. that horse is now in our possession and awaiting a paint job. :)

he calls me mama

tomorrow is my first "official" mother's day. last year on mother's day i was pregnant and the year before that i had just lost mikayah. needless to say this year i am excited to celebrate mother's day as a mama to the sweetest little boy!
before i had him i thought i knew what being a mama would be like. boy was i wrong. it is so much more than i imagined. it's harder than i imagined too. i never knew that one tiny little person could completely melt me like he has. i have learned that being a mama is more than a never ending babysitting job. there are times when i am the only one that can calm him, and i'm ok with that. there are times when i can't fix what's wrong, and i'm learning to be ok with that. there are times when i get frustrated because i can't figure out what's wrong, and, slowly, i'm learning to be ok with that. but more than anything my heart is so filled with love and joy because of this little person God has placed in my life that i am sure it will explode. it's only been 10 months and i know i have a lot more learning and a lot more crazy times ahead of me in this journey called motherhood, but i can not imagine my life with out my sweet baby in it. he is an answer to many many prayers and am so blessed and grateful to God that he calls me MAMA.

Happy Mother's Day to all of you mamas out there!

dancing in the minefields

so i've been mia for a little while now. i've just been enjoying being a mommy and wife and watching my little man grow and change daily. it amazes me how things can change from one day to the next at this point. i can not believe that silas will be 7 months old next tuesday! the time has just flown by and he is growing and changing and it's so much fun to watch. he is the sweetest little guy and has so much personality. he is definitely mobile now (not completely crawling but can get where he wants to go no problem). he has two little teeth on the bottom and as of his 6 month appt is 15 lb 6 oz and 25 1/2 inches. (8% for weight and 5% for height). he's my little peanut and i love him more and more each day and am so thankfully to be his mommy!
tuesday i went with a friend and her 2 little ones to the zoo in jacksonville. silas seemed to enjoy looking at everything, though i know that he will really enjoy it a few months from now. here are a few pictures from that and a couple extras thrown in for fun. (i forgot my camera so they are iphone pics)

this is us on the train ride

 relaxing during lunch (in his new peg perego stroller i scored off of craigs list for $50)

 the elephant that came right up to where we were standing

 me and my little man looking at the ostriches

 this little guy is just 2 weeks old.

 at the christmas parade

 his new face he likes to make. 

i hope to update more often. i'm trying to get better at taking more pictures and having my camera with me all the time.

my heart is full because of you.

i can't believe my baby boy turned 4 months old on the 7th. he is growing and changing daily and i am loving watching him as he learns new things and as his personality develops.
we went to his 4 month check-up today. he weighs 13 lb 6 oz which is in the 10% and 24 1/2 in which is in the 20%. he has such a sweet personality and LOVES to "talk"! i am so thankful that God has given Jason and i this little boy to care for and can't wait to continue to watch him grow! i am one blessed mama!

we have also started "food" this week. so far he has had rice cereal and sweet potatoes. he seems to really enjoy eating. next week we are going to try carrots.

i could stare at this sweet face all day! (probably why i don't get half the things done i intend to!)

a baby boy to love.

i've been MIA in blog world for a while but i have been spending my time enjoying my new role as a mama. i never could have imagined what it would be like and how i could feel but these past 8 weeks have been amazing. there have been some challenges (breastfeeding is hard) and i'm slowly learning how to function with much less sleep but i wouldn't change a thing. the joy that this little boy has brought to jason and i (and the rest of our family) is incredible! it's hard to believe that this coming wednesday he will be two months old! time is flying by! i am enjoying watching him grow and change. he has recently started smiling (real, not gas smiles) and they melt my heart. he also loves to talk and try and laugh at his daddy. and he is very busy. when he's not sleeping he has to be moving. he holds his head up very well now. i think he also thinks he wants to crawl. when we put him down for "tummy time" he pulls his little legs up under him and tries to push with his feet. i have a feeling he is going to be very active as he gets bigger. his 2 month check-up is friday and i can't wait to see how much he's grown. 

jason and i plan to take some "real" pictures of him soon, but until then here and a few from my phone over the past few weeks. (it's sad that so far most of his life has been documented on iphones but hopefully that will change.)

we have discovered he prefers to sleep on his tummy.

 mohawk :)

 here's a video of him trying to "crawl"

"finally a bride!"

"always a bridesmaid, never a bride." that quote is commonly used for people regarding marriage, but for jason and i it has been how we have felt about having kids. we have wanted kids for a long time and couldn't get pregnant. we would always keep other people kids but longed for one of our own. well on july 7, 2011 at 7:54 am we finally became the "bride". jason silas percy was finally here! the feeling that i felt the moment i heard his first cry (i had a c-section so i didn't get to see him right away) is one i will never forget. it is something i have thought about and dreamed about. it's a love like i've never known. this little person has just come into my life, yet i know that i would do anything for him. i am so very thankful that God has chosen to allow me to be this little boy's mommy. he is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to jason and i!

7 lbs 2 oz, 20 inches of pure sweetness

i'm so in love!

my loves! this is one blessed little boy to have such an amazing daddy!!!!

thank you God for this tiny miracle! he has been waited for and prayed for by so many.

almost there

as of today i am 34 weeks pregnant with our little man. i can't believe how fast it has gone! he will be here before we know it. i found out at my last doctors appt. that i have to have a c-section so (unless i go into labor early) he will be here july 11 or 12. i like having a date to count down to and can't believe that it is only 4 1/2 weeks away! jason and i have been washing all of his clothes and tonight i got his diaper bag together. doing all of this and having his room set up is making it seem so much more real now. sometimes i just walk into the nursery and stare at it. :) i will post some pics of it once all the stuff is put away and it looks decent again. and then hopefully the next post after that will be pictures of our little man.